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Saturday, December 15, 2007

Dear diary,

im here today writting you this blog with full of emotions and expressions.
can i tell you guys out there how i totally feel.
seriously, i feel very very tired with this. and i feel like i can't move on.
listen guys, you told me to stay strong, and yes i did. and maybe someone who knows me well would know how i am. infront of you guys i'll stay strong but behind, i'll let everything out.
im sick of this word call, love. which every girls and boys wants.
but hey, my love for fadli won't change, it's still the same like it was before.
love him with the fullest of my heart.
do you guys know that im having a headache plus feeling im totally useless.

i've been dying for his call nor messages.
but i guees i hope to much. none.
how i wish i could know what happen to him.
im totally worried.
is his pre-paid top up?

am i hoping to much from him?
i feel like i am.
certainly because i love him damn much.
looking at his pictures just make me feel so bad/terrible.
and i did not eat as much as i use too. just a tiny bit.

and i did not talk to dad.
useless larrs talk to him. everytime scold me when i did not make any mistakes.
and im very furious okay. if i was his dad, i would literally beat him up, totally.
for goodness sake, if you were innocent do you like people scold you and say bad things?
i hope not.
soo fuck up bitch.

and another point is the people outside there, if i have hurt your feeling im really sorry.
i apologize for my behaviour.
and to people who wants revenge or hating me, please continue.
because i won't care.
i'll lead my life like normal. insult me, go on.
one sentence i would say to you guys, "only god will know how to teach a lesson to you bunch of people". and i'll stop with a fullstop.
im tired of fighting, seriously.
im totally in a bad mood and my mood usually swing.
mess with me? i'll mess with you back.
im not being bad or what, im just being me.
my mood can sometimes make you feel worthless and i can beat you up.
im admiting it not to say im a fanatic girl. look at my appearance properly.
i don't dress up like a minah does, im an ordinary people.
because i have my own limits and that's for sure.

i usually follow my mood, if it turns out really bad. you guys better watch your steps.
im telling you now.
because i can scold, say vulgarities or even beat you up.

now in this world everything does not seem right.
all upside down.
and times move fast.
people start to learn new things and we get lazy.

my emotions for today is sad and furious.

"how i wish my phone would ring today."

toodles~

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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