Friday, July 30, 2010
Dear diary,
No words can describe,
We've been through a lot this days. We've been through the toughest moment we could ever imagine.
But still, we are staying strong right ?
No matter how big ego both of us are, i do love you no matter what.
The truth hurts but the lies is the worst part ever.
p/s: love can't be judge.
"whenifelttheworldfallingapartbecauseofus,iwouldratherholdonthanlettingitgo."
& wishing it was true.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Dear diary,
Not into typing no more,
I may not be active in updating blog anymore.
I may not be posting about how i feel or thoughts here anymore.
I feel like there's no privacy so i'm back to hands on which is writing.
And oh, papa is going overseas today morning.
I'm going to miss him even if its only for 3 days.
And to Natasha Andiny Dewi Putri, take care at indonesia ok ?
Hope opah is ok there.
I love you.
To NurulAin, i miss you much.
Bye, so long fuckers.
p/s: one love.
"whatisdoneisdone"
& wishing it was true.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Dear diary,
I wish upon the moonlight,
A very special day of mine will be coming real soon.
I have a wishlist that i want for my birthday but i'm not expecting anything much.
Ok, here's the list.
Twinkle twinkle little moon, how i wish i could get all of this.
HAHAHAH !
. Samsung Corby Pro. ( red )
. The new camera that will process instant photo. $199
. Big cookie monster.
. Cookie monster Tee's.
. Meet up with friends, close friends, bestiest and baby on birthday.
. Brother and sister celebration.
. I want eat at sakura.
. I want to be the happiest girl on my birthday.
That's the end of my wishlist.
I know i must be crazy to have all of this.
But how i only wish.
:D
Seriously i miss everyone.
):
p/s: 7 more days.
"iloveyounomatterwhatbreakusthrough"
& wishing it was true.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Dear diary,
Third time and its hard,
Totally, i'm surprise with everything.
It had just ended, my world war 3.
In one week straight we've been fighthing.
A big one.
And, i know some part was my fault.
But some part was you, who kept on blaming that you're not perfect.
So fuck care.
All i did was cry and cry and cry.
I didn't even sleep today.
I couldn't put my head to rest.
I can't put my mind to peace.
My heart is aching so much that i couldn't even feel the pain.
The pieces every where.
And some pieces dissapear, lost just like that.
See how hurtful i may get.
I'm fragile, vulnarable but definitely maybe naive for you.
This third time seems the hardest to apologise.
I need time, space.
If it was the second time, i don't mind i can give it a chance.
But its been thrice this way.
never could imagine we can be like this.
I'm out of words already, i'm speechless.
All i can do now, is kept all this things inside and keep it deeply.
Because some of my feelings i don't like showing where else i love keeping it.
if i can rewind back time, i would love to rewind it.
i'm so in pain.
p/s: a future without fight, how i wish for.
"notalwaysyouwhofeelsthatway,metoo"
& wishing it was true.
