Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Dear diary,
A word that always been said,
Sorry was the only word i can think of.
Sorry was the only word i had been saying to you and myself.
I blame myself for everything that happened.
I'm sorry.
We are not the same like we used to.
D':
God must hate me.
p/s: apologise.
"ican'tstopblamingmyselfaboutus"
& wishing it was true.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Dear diary,
Anger but not revengeful,
Well a very big ' Hello ! ' to readers out there.
Its been quite long i didn't update my blog.
Well, lets blog about today's routine.
First, my whole flat was electricity cut off to repair our wires.
For me its ok, i don't mind at all.
It's from 8.30am to 5.00pm.
Luckly water supply wasn't cut off.
I went to showered and get ready to go out to gym with my aunt.
Suddenly, when i walked out from my house i saw my plants all been stacked up like nobody buisness.
I was like, " waaaah ! kanina ! "
Looked at the china worker feel like throwing vulgarities to them.
Luckly my brother plant was alright, except for mine. CIBAI HORR !
I want a complain i really want a complain.
Fucker sia all this workers.
NO BRAIN !
I feel so angry like i can totally punch all of them in one go.
But its ok.
My plant die, that workers face also die.
Angry horrrr who not angry, si beh kanina.
I'm craving for burger king but mum keep on making excusses.
Making stupid excusses. Don't want help buy its ok.
):
What a fuck life i have, i hate it super hate.
Everything that she wants, she gets it even when she's tired.
For her child, fuck not even a help can be done.
Just forget it, i want 28 june, 5 july, 14 july and 15 july to come very very fast.
p/s: anger wasn't my game, it's my attitude.
"whenimissyouiwillalwayscryoutyourname."
& wishing it was true.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Dear diary,
Sorry but bringing up old stories won't work,
A very well fuck you to all of you people.
Cheers to fuckers and suckers.
Yesterday, some people make my mood swing very moody.
I swear, if i can really beat up you guys. I've beaten up you guys already.
If i do that don't ever show me your sorry butts to my face because i will spit on it and say, " FUCK OFF ! "
Try messing with me, you'll get the wrong person to mess with.
No pain, no fun.
Try me.
Haaah ! About all those fuckers, there are just some dogs running around Singapore.
Making this country so dirty.
Malay say, " sampah masyarakat. "
(:
I rather type about something else than typing about losers like them.
Well, about this baby girl of mine she's turning 17 this month.
Gosh, baby i brought you something (:
Wait for your present alright ?
Talking about her, i missed taking good care of her.
I missed being with her the 22/7 hours.
I missed seeing her laughter and movements.
Baaaah ~ Baby girl i so miss you damn much.
):
A lot of things happen in life now.
Here there, left right.
Haish ! Fuck life.
Ahmad Zulfieqa,
I know you're trying your best to help sharul to get back to me but i can't.
Love can't be force and now you know who i am with.
I just don't know laa, i just hate him in a way.
But, i'm trying my very best to help you.
everyday all i know is i want to glaze in your eyes, telling you how much i missed and love you.
p/s: 15th
"uoyevoli"
& wishing it was true.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Dear diary,
When it's bitten it hurts,
Sometimes i wonder, why is everyone so busy.
Leaving me alone at home with nothing to do.
Sometimes, it hurts seeing empty rooms which was suppose to filled up with people.
Abang is busy with work.
Mother is always busy with work and occasions.
Father is busy with work and always over time.
So i left alone at home.
):
Bored.
That's why i often go out.
No money no die.
p/s: too much space.
"whenyoucamehereinlife,youmakemerealisehowthisworldisunfair"
& wishing it was true.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Dear diary,
News as hot as pancakes now,
To the people who knows what happen in my relationship please don't bother to asked anymore.
What else is there to know since things already happen ?
Do i have to record what happen and show it to you guys ?
Must i ?
I shouldn't.
Not everything must be shared around people or even others.
Some things are private and can't be told.
So simply don't bother asking what happen.
When its the end, its the end.
People may see i'm not sad or anything but they don't know what happen to my world now.
Only a tiny bit of people knew and also not forgetting God.
Tell me who doesn't feel the pain ?
Even animals feel hurt when they fight each other.
A notice to all.
I may not be active in anything for now.
Blog or even slacking.
Thank you.
I need time and space.
alone.
p/s: not yours, anymore.
"letitbe,bygonesstaybygones"
& wishing it was true.
