Bestfriend's AGAIN.

The day when i received a message from you, i was shocked.
My heartbeat, stopped for a moment.
How i missed the day when you and i both message together.
The days were we will always meet.
It seems so wonderful.

The day when i saw you, i hide my widest smile.
God, how i miss you.
The day when you talk to me, i felt like crying.
Everything that you do, i missed it.
All the memories together, i missed it.

We were back like last time, how i REALLY missed it.
It felt so unbelievable that we can be back TOGETHER.

Hafiz Saidi,
If i had done any wrongs doing towards you, please forgive me sincerely.
I'm so sorry to hurt your feelings back then.
I promise not to do the same mistakes again.
I love you, Bestfriend.

(=

People do say that, " patience is a virtue" and it's true.

p/s: i got you back.

"thehappiestdayofmylifeisonthedaywhereyoutalktome"

Rubbish.

Every results was shit. Flung, i'm dead.
Everything was just, Shit.
Emotionally affected.
Bloody, fuck, shit, shit shit.
I want shit at those results.

Can't sleep eventhough i'm sleepy.
Still awake, freshly awake. Like, wow !
A bowl of mee can't make me go to sleep.
How i wish i could bake in this time.
Bloody, its in the middle of the night and i'm not even asleep.
Ibu is sleeping on the sofa next to me.

Gosh, this fasting month really test my patience.
Really, no jokes.
Feel like bashing the walls and scream.
I'm mentally and emotionally ill for the time being.
Stupid.
Everything seems so wrong.
Ice cream look like Chendol.
Panadols look like Drugs.
Injections look like Subutexs.

My body don't feel to well.
My head hurts.
My body ache.
CB !
Call 995 for help please.

I can't think anything for any composition now.
My head is blank and i think my english has worsen.
Somebody call for me an English tutor please.
I need to open my last years book.

Crap sia me.
Better sleep with my baby cat for now.

-what if i had to go before i can hear your voice for the last time ?
what if i had to go before i can even look at your face one more time ?
what if i had to go before i can even hear you say, " bestfriend " ?

All of it came back to the questions, ' what if '.

imissarep.

p/s: wonder wonder why.

"you'llneverknewwhat'sgonnahappensoon"

Ops, someone feels that his the one.

Regarding about yesterday composition, someone feels that his the one.
Crap.
Oh ya, typing about the compostion. There's still more to type out.

The girl went out to buy her food for breaking fast. On the way to the food stall, she received a message by her ex. Her ex told her that he had break up with his new girlfriend.
She was shocked and damn she was hurt. Why does he have to break up with that girl if in the first place he love her ? She doesn't think its a fair thing to do to his new girlfriend.
She was angry and furious so she messaged him back, scolding him. She could not accept the fact that his doing this to that lovely girl. How could he.
She kept thinking what does her ex really wants from the girls.
Until now, she's still finding the answers to his actions.

God, what really happen in the end ?
I wonder.

MHBS,
I saw you under your friend void deck with your laptop. I missed you.
):
I always wanted a hug from you. I'm sorry.
You will always be my bestfriend.

p/s: my friendship with you will never end, hafiz.

"areyoustillmadatme?"

Composition, i guess.

This is a story not including anyone's life story.
It's freshly made by my own head.
It was a composition that i need to type out.
No hard feelings people.

There was once a girl, crying after her ex asked for a 'break up' few months ago. He told her that he could not take it anymore with her behaviour. He said, he had enough.
The girl sat down and cried after reading the message. She asked him, why must it end up now. His answer was that, he, himself don't even know. The girl thinks that the boy was just toying with her feelings.
Days after days he contacted back with his ex. First she was furious.
Second, she contacted him and feel that she has fallen for him the second time.
She forgets what had happen to her and her ex.
They were happily contacted till one fine day, he stopped contacting.
The girl don't know what happen to her ex and she just kept quite.
As days goes by she kept thinking, what's wrong.
Soon she found out that her ex had already move on with another girl, who used to be close with him.
He once promise his ex that he will wait for her no matter what and he told her that she was his only one. The girl was so shocked to hear that his attached.
She sat down in her room and told herself that he needs to move on too.
Until now the girl still wonder, why in the first place her ex must promise her all those craps ?
And she still wonders.

What a composition.
Emotionally fuck-ed.
Gaaaah ~ no wonder i don't really believe in, ' love '.
So crappy shits.
Why does this world need love anyway ?
End up, it will always hurt you.
Jeeesh !

Should he be named, a boy who cried wolf ?

MHBS,
where are you bestfriend ? i missed you.
)':

p/s: i want my bestfriend back, help me.

"somebodypleasecall999causei'mfindingmybestfriendilosthimonthewaytoschool"

Losing someone is not, FAIR.

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing.
I don't want to fall for it now.
I never meant to start war.
I never meant to hurt you.
I don't want it to be a WAR.
But suddenly it became like a Battlefield, battlefield.
A Battlefield.

Here, best of life.
everythings clear nothing seems
to change how I love You and
You're gonna leave
I am slowly dying here inside
trying to let go
I tried to let go
but I can't let you go.

You and Me used to be together
everyday together, ALWAYS.
I never feel, that I'm losing
My BESTFRIEND, I can't believe
this could be THE END.
Don't speak, I know what you're thinking.
So please stop explaining, don't tell me cause it HURTS.
I got to stop pretending, who we ARE.
Our memories is not the END of our FRIENDSHIP.

MUHAMMAD HAFIZ BIN SAINI,
I once lose a Bestfriend and i don't want to lose you.
I don't want to lose another Bestfriend. I don't know what went wrong to both of US.
But if it was my FAULT in anyways.
I'm SORRY. So sorry to make you Mad.
So SORRY to hurt you.
I know you are still MAD cause i can see it from your face.
I know you still don't want to talk to me cause i can sense it.
The way you talk, I know you are Furious.
I'm waiting for the time when you really want to talk to me to solve things out.
Cause I can't see you in this way.
It hurts me. HURTS me a lot.
We had been so close friends and now it seems to be fading.
All i can do right now is to wait and ask for forgiveness until you accept it.
People say, patience is a virture.
I have to wait for you to calm down.
But please, come back to me.
Tell me what's wrong.
ACCEPT my APOLOGISE.
talk to me.

Cause, i love you as my Bestest Boy Friend.
I can't say 'GO'.
I can't build a bridge and get over it now.
I'm sorry.

You and me were always together and now there's no more YOU, there's no more ME.
p/s: i'm still holding on to our FRIENDSHIP. It will last.

"cause,ineverwantthistoENDjustlikethat"

Blog Stupid !

Recently i'm having a problem with this blog. Seriously shit i'm so pissed off.
Setupid blog.

Last 3 days i had a very high fever.
Temperature from 39.4 to 39.3 to 38.6 and back to 39.6.
Haiyaaa, i feel like hell sia. Now my temperature is 37.5 and anytime it can go up to 38 again.
Doctor told me that my throat is swollen and it is very bad.
I know what's the reason so i kept QUIET.

Well actually i was suppose to sleep over at NurulAin's house but then with this fever and flu, i don't wish to infect them all.
Sad or what.
)':

Currently doing nothing.
I guess i should check on the blogskin.
WELL I JUST SO PISS OFF WITH BLOG.

p/s: fever setupid also blog.

"gonnamissyou"