Sunday, February 21, 2010
Dear diary,
It's the end of us,
Last night call was so hurtful, the words that you spoke breaks my heart.
Break me down, feel like there's no more life on earth.
A friend isn't the same as someone special.
It's different.
I can't let go, how ?
Crying was all i could do.
Why must it turn out to be this way ?
First song for you, Muhammad Hanif Bin Jalil.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOdHkPPaOmw
Second song, thank you Hanif.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yklXJmNIgLU
Third song, i'll still wait for you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFcYZZZaQN8
And this is so heart breaking moment.
If only you can feel it.
I'm breaking down, so badly.
I'll wait for you Muhammad Hanif.
p/s: ending wasn't the best.
"youletmegoicryandi'llstillwaitforyoubecauseiloveyou."
& wishing it was true.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Dear diary,
The heart cries silently,
If i could climb up a hill, i would do it and shout out a name.
A name that resembles, me. The other part of me.
Sadly, it's ending soon.
The heart shattered, broken.
Can you see it shattered ? Maybe no.
You're blinded with your own feelings.
I showered you with love yet you repay me with sorrows.
I gave you my fullest attention but you throw it away.
I gave you my heart but you torn it apart.
What else do you want from me ?
I laugh at my ownself for being stupid to not to think carefully.
I cried each time, thinking of it and still thinks that it was just a dream.
Stupid me.
This is so hard and the worst part is to let you go.
I can't but i have to, i have no other choices.
Your heart i can't cast a spell on it, it's you to choose.
I hereby dedicate this song just for you, Muhammad Hanif Bin Jalil.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdhzJnL8BRs
You left a scar on my heart and each time i think of it, i kept on crying.
This heart is hurt, badly hurt by you.
All i can do now is cry and cry and cry because i can't force you to stay.
Love isn't a game.
It's a choice of our life time.
We depend on it, not used it.
How hurt do you want to see me ?
i'll still wait for you, no matter what.
p/s: hurt by you.
"cryingoveraspiltmilkwon'tdobutican'tstopcryingforgoodnesssake"
& wishing it was true.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Dear diary,
Morning ducklings smells yucky,
Morning to all the people on the earth.
Its been so long i last post in the morning.
A lot of things are in my head.
How can i even be happy for just awhile ?
I'm being pressured and hurt all this time.
Should i do this or that ? I'm confused.
Should i or not ? I'm still confused.
People change so fast and i hate it.
I so wish i could hide like this kid, to avoid everything that happens.
half way of giving up.
But i can't give up, now.
p/s: this wasn't the way to be.
"andyoucamebackandisoinlovewithit"
& wishing it was true.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Dear diary,
Special day without you,
It's 14 February and it's Valentine's Day.
A day for couple to celebrate together and be happy.
For those who are in a relationship or on the way of becoming one, Happy Valentine Day.
May your day today be a pleasant one.
I'm staying at home, since going out seeing couple just hurt me.
Rather stay at home and hear lion dance.
To brother, happy valentine's day may you and kakak pieja last long.
I love you, both.
Seeing you both happy makes me happy too.
i don't know what's wrong with us.
am i crying alone or are you crying too ?
because, i miss you.
where are you ?
A 50-50 feeling to dedicate this song to, Muhammad Hanif Bin Jalil.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4d6miflepM
i've been crying for so many days.
imissUS.
p/s: no you.
"italwaysfeelslikeadeadendwithoutyou."
& wishing it was true.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Dear diary,
A day so Great,
Had an outing with classmate.
Ite peeps, i love.
Went with Ahmad Zulfieqar, Muhammad Faiz, Muhammad Shah and Siti Nur Zulaiha with Anul.
To changi beach for our cycling activity.
Overall, it was awsome and i so love today.
Thanks guys.
the jiwe's.
I'm a happy kid, today !
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
p/s: happy and over joy.
"wearesonotstable,whenarewefixingUS?"
& wishing it was true.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Dear diary,
And i hate this part,
Irritated.
p/s: just shut up.
"withyouorhimisadifference."
& wishing it was true.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Dear diary,
When you feel guilty towards others,
D':
You feel like you don't want to came across this world.
p/s: )':
"willneverbeyourstar."
& wishing it was true.
