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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Dear diary,

I GAVE UP ON EVERYTHING.

WITH YOU AND YOUR ATTITUDE.

WITH EVERYTHING.

I had taken my part to apologise so many times yet you still show the same fucking attitude of yours, boyfriend. Tell me what you want and what you're not sastify about.

You told me that you're not happy with my anger but i was born to be like that. I can't change it or undo it because i grew up with that kind of temper. You should have known me and my attitude well enough.
I thought you knew, but i was wrong so wrong.
You have to study more about me.
I know that i can't change your attitude and you can't change mine. Why not, you just be you and i be my ownself. Isn't it much better and happier?
You were so fuck up with me, told me that i scolded you which im not.
You put your sentence in a, " i don't like your attitude " way.
Mummy scolded me in the morning and you make the situation even worser.

And today, you told your friends that your sim card has expire but why must you tell them first? I was there and yet you choose to tell them first than me? But still you didn't tell me about it. In the bus, you talk to them and left me alone.
Why can't you talk to me? Am i deaf for you? Or you treat me just like an ordinary friend?
I felt that im ~~not even~~ your girlfriend. You choose to be with your friend rather than me, your own girlfriend.
Ops, or maybe your ~~friend~~.
I don't understand your motive and you simply can't understand me.
What have i done wrong to you?

I made my decision and giving up was my final decision.
Im the one who is always holding on to this bond whereas you keep on showing me your attitude.
That's simply not FAIR.
But, my heart won't stop beating for you, your HEART and LOVE.
I'll still keep this relationship and i won't break it.
Just that im tired with all of your attitude.
Give me time.
Maybe i'll adjust myself, being more comfortable with you.
Understanding every single thing about you.

Should i say ~~GOODBYE~~?
Should i ~~LEAVE YOU ALONE~~?
Should i cut myself and write a letter to you by using my own blood to show how much i LOVE you?
Should i pretend to be happy with you which im ~~NOT~~?
Should i ~~GIVE UP~~?
OR
Should i complain?
Should i whine when you show your attitude?
Should i cry, when you ~~BROKE~~ my HEART?
Should i be more PATIENCE?
Should i be ~~ALONE~~?
OR
Should i lock myself in a room and CRY?
Should i DIE?

Im giving up because i have enough suffer, alone.
I cry alone, i hurt my ownself alone, i shout alone.
I bang my head alone and i type alone.
I did everything alone this past two days.
Without you is a burden but im trying my very best to calm down.
Trying my best to be more patience with your sick attitude.
Trying my best to understand you, over and over again.
I can't stop crying and i can't do much work alone.
I need you and i miss you.
How should i react in this situation?

Can anyone bury me alive?

Thanks 3B for supporting me and also my close friends.

P/s: maybe i need to stay alone or i should apologise every single second?
P/s: are you the one who is changing or is it just me?

"stupid attitude fucking love stories"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
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Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

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Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
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