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Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Dear diary,

I hate it when we fight.
I hate it when we start to give each other a cool shoulder.
I hate it when we remain silence.
I hate it when we make fucking faces.
I hate it when we say ourself, useless.
I hate it when we cry.
I hate it when both of us are mad about such small issue.

I once wanted to destroy this beautiful paradise.
I once wanted to demolised every single cities.
I once wanted to cried out loud and kill myself.
I once wanted to be in this world with the feeling of sastifaction.
I once wanted to be in this world with happiness.
I once wanted to stay strong no matter what.
I once wanted a guy to stop hurting me and start loving me like a human being.
I once wanted to jump down from the 12 storey.
I once wanted to fight my fears.
I once wanted to forget about my ex's.

But everything of those fails.
I just don't understand about you now, boyfriend.
Your changing day by day.
Acting weirdly night by night.
Fighting day by day.
What's wrong? I just don't know.

This few weeks wasn't my favourite week after all.
I just wanted to get up and shout this, " i hate your attitude right now."
But words keep pulling me back.
The more i wanted to speak out loud about that, the more it is pulling myself down.
Taping my mouth with tape.
Scribbling my thoughts with love.
Opening my eyes to see how preacious you are to me.
Stuffing my ears with cotton wool so that i couldn't hear the bad words which came out from your mouth.
Crafting my hands to the wall, so that i couldn't slap you.
Sealing my legs to the ground, so that i couldn't kick your cock.
And it all ends up with love.

Today, we're happy and the next minute we're mad.
I don't know.
You change Abdillah.
I couldn't call you baby for now because my heart is in pain.
I only could call you jr.
Your nick and thats it.

Give me time and i'll give yours.
Show me that you've change into you, yourself.

P/s: Trying to forget about love.

"im waiting for that moment to happen"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
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Single.
Pampered.
Daddy's little babyy.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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