typing.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Dear diary,

I'll be going off to my coffin soon because im dying.

Get ready for all of your tears and towels.
Get ready for all of the flowers.
Because sooner or later i will literally die due to my heart ache.

I swear it hurts.

I swear it's killing me.

I swear im not strong.

I swear i could die.

I swear i won't stay long with this kind of heart ache.

Im dying.

Put me in my coffin.

Comforting and advices don't really work that much.
I better be off than letting myself hurt even deeper.

I put on my best behaviour infront of everyone.
I put on my best mask infront of everyone.
I put my best smile and laughter infront of everyone.
I put my best self infront of everyone.

Nobody can hear that im crying my heart and lungs out.
It really hurts me deeply. It cuts like a knife.
It breaks like a glass.
It lost like a silver diamond ring.
My heart is now in serious pain.
Seriously, it hurting me.
How i wish i have a heart cancer or whatsoever.
To die faster. To bury all this sadness faster.
To kill all this pain away. To let all this sadness go.

Nobody can feel how i feel.
This smile, this laughter are so fake.
So fake until i over-react on it.
So fake that it hurts myself so much.

I need to take a break.

I need to breathe.

I need to let it go.

I need to be stress-free.

I need to go with the flow.

I need to run.

I need to find a nice relaxing place.

I need to relaxs my mind.

I need to get out of all this shits.

All this problems.

Im dying.
Put me in my black metallic coffin.
Bury me in.
Don't let any lights shone on my coffin.
Because i won't need it.

P/s: my heart is really aching. ))':

"this tears people won't notice"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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