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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Dear diary,

It's WORST than HELL.

My life have turn more upside down than before.
Dad has become like he used too the last few years back.
He starts to shout, beat after brother left for China.
How i wish i could speed the time and ask brother to come home soon, so that my mum and i could stop our suffering with dad.
Life has been worst like ever.
Im not talking to dad.
It seem hard.
He used a lot of harsh words with me.

I can't explain how hurt i am, only God know's how i feel.
I feel like killing myself.
I told mum, i would rather die than being here and suffer.
Dad is not a good dad for us.
But whatever it is, he's still my dad.
I feel like running away from home but i pity mum.
I love mum and im not ok with dad.
I miss big brother but i never miss dad.
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My life is a piece of shit.

Im trying to delete every moment of suffering with dad,
but i can't,
i keep trying but i fail,
because he keep on doing the same thing,
trying to be the old him,
beating us,
scolding us,
im not a kid,
im a teenager,
i need my space,
you're not giving it enough,
you wanted to beat me,
why not beat me till death?

I rather die than staying in one roof with you, dad.
You're not curing my phobia.
You're making it worst now.
How i could just say this to you again infront of your face,
~~I HATE YOU DAD.~~

p/s: i need my space but still you don't understand.

"life without a father love is hard i tell you"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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