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Friday, November 28, 2008

Dear diary,

No words can describe the pain and sorrow in my heart.

Learning to keep the problem alone.
Im learning it steps by steps.
Moving with life, one by one.
Struggling alone, bit by bit.
Making plans for me to be happy.
Slacking to make me feel more happy.
But,
nothing cure's the pain in my heart.
Trying to be unrealistic.
Trying to make it happen.
But,
all of it was unlogical.

My heart sets with fire, air, water and mud.
See,
i just can't describe how i feel.
I feel hurt.
I feel sad.
I feel terrible.
I feel so miserable.
I need to run.
I need to walk.
To run away from reality,
and travel to a place where i could stay.
No fighting.
Only peace.
No mercy.
No hating.

I just can't describe how i feel this days.
This weeks.
This months.
It feels so horrible.
So,
so,
incomplete.
I want to hit.
Hit as hard as i can.
But,
i can't.
My body is weak.
My mind is down.
My heart is hurt.

Previously, i need someone to really rely on.
Which is my brother.
2 more days and i can't wait.
Can't wait to have him back all this months.
All this months without telling anyone about my problems.
I just need my brother to comfort me.
To tell me what is right and wrong.
To hug me and kiss me.
To tell me that he will always be with me and he will always love me.

))':

I just NEED my brother to come home soon.

I miss a lot of people.
Especially, ~~Syafiq Sariman~~.

p/s: i need my advicer and listener.

"towards what i feel right now, is not what i really want"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
140793.
Single.
Pampered.
Daddy's little babyy.
Allergics: Dark Chocolates.
ITE Mac Pherson.

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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

~~tune in~~

Plug in to your own IPOD / MP3 / MP4.
Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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