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Saturday, December 6, 2008

Dear diary,

This was the biggest mistake i had ever make.

Amirul, im sorry.

I had never felt this feeling since a long time ago. This was the third mistake i made.
I would lose another close friend of mine, like last time.
I was just a kid who repeat its mistakes easily. I cried, drown with tears when you leave me alone while i was searching for you. I couldn't reach you because you off your bloody phone.
I was crying, crying for you. I nearly lose you last week and now, i lose you for good.
People who are dying to see us apart should be happy enough by now. Im losing you for the second time.
The second time.

I won't let this hand full of love, drown just like that. The love of building my friendship with you is really hard.
I need to endure all of the insults and all, just for our friendship and we're ending up soon. This was not our plans. We planned to stay long with this friendship, to be together in any situations, to stick to only one but what had happen?
Your letting it go easily while im here, crying my heart out just for you.
Hoping you'll come back to me again and always be my friend.

This situation is so tough right now. Many questions is running on my mind now.
Fear is coming back once again. I just can't stay strong when you're gone.
Your the one who build me up with your courage and support. Your the one who always listen to all my problems and lame jokes. Who used to be patience. Who used to cheer me up when im down.
Where had all of those gone to?
To the drain? Into a big bin?

Im really hoping, hoping you'll read the message and text me back.
Im really hoping, you could be my friend again and again without failing.
I need you in my life to stay strong like the others.
I know that im not that perfect for you but as a friend i will be the most perfect for you.
I'll try my very best for you, JUST for you.

When you're gone right now, i could only cry.
I don't know what else should i do. I told you already, i just need you.
Friend, if breaking off our friendship is what you wanted, i will do it.
I can't make things right if you don't even want it anymore.
But, as you know.
I am always yours, yours to keep, yours to hold.
I'll keep my love deeply inside.
Buried this love and think that you're still mine till the end.

i told you i love you,
its true,
i never wanted this to happen,
and i didn't know this would happen today,
you left me,
hanging alone,
searching for you,
high and low,
but,
you're no where to be found,
boy,
i love you,
i need you,
i miss you,
i only had your last kiss on my cheecks,
and you're gone,
dissapear into thin air.

Boy, if i was the one who created all of this, im sorry.
I only had your last kiss on my cheecks and you're gone.
Maybe, i wasn't perfect enough to be your friend.

p/s: under pressure.

"uoy evol i"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

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Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
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