typing.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Dear diary,

2009 pathetic !

Holding all this tears and heart ache inside.

I don't wish to talk to people now. Feel like locking myself in my room and ask myself why.
I don't wish to elaborate because im stupid in skills. Fullstop.
Yes, im blaming myself.
Blame me, ok?

Feel like telling everyone that im slow and i can't be a better player.
Yes, my heart is aching because people are better and more worth it.
I don't wish to post my feelings or even this. It just makes me feel not worth it.
~~A loser.~~

Im controling this emotions real strong. I don't want any tears to drop but i fail.
Im still not strong as i thought i were.
Im just not worth anyone's time. Kick me away.
Throw me away because i sucks.
I don't wish to be like this but i can't fake it. Let me be alone for awhile.
Do my own stuff and let me realise on my own.

Feel like locking those doors, trapping me inside with question and question marks.
Let me fade, fade away in darkness. Let me try, try to be someone better.
Let me answer those question when im ready.
I don't like to be force but seriously i hate today.

A BIG FULLSTOP.

p/s: never felt this pain before and its aching.

"im just a rose which wither in fall seasons and bloom in spring seasons."

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
140793.
Single.
Pampered.
Daddy's little babyy.
Allergics: Dark Chocolates.
ITE Mac Pherson.

Other applications :
!Facebook.
!Twitter.

my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

~~tune in~~

Plug in to your own IPOD / MP3 / MP4.
Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

~~Taggy Board ?~~

To spammers and losers, hello mother freak.
Thanks for dropping by for tagging or whatever shit ok ?
But seriously tagging without real name or link is such a fucking cyber losers.
Get a life and stop bothering about people's life maybe your own life is not perfect yet so make yourself perfect before spotting other's MISTAKES !
Thanks bitches and dick-ers.