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Friday, February 27, 2009

Dear diary,

Cramping in just one place.

Sitting in computer lab 2, finishing my reseacrh on Design and Technology.
I've got nothing to do except for listening to musics and blogging.
My real intention was actually to sleep in this aircorn room because its to cool but i gave up due to the noise level.
Bruises all over this leg, painful and hurting.
Soccer training was tiring. Everyday, train, train and keep on training.
My thumb is hurting maybe because of the training.
Feel like its dislocated somehow.

Nowadays, going out playing soccer till late at night seems to be my hobby.
Feel like going out could kill all these hurts that i kept inside me.
A ball to let go of my anger, teammates to learn more skills and time to kill this feeling of hurt.
I can't help myself to stay at home for even 5 hours.
It does not seem like a house anymore, its more like an hotel which you go in and out easily.
I don't want to dissapoint mum actually but i have to do something about myself first.

How mentally ill i can get for today ?
Early in the morning, heard mum and dad quarrel.
Everyday is the same.
Wish i had a power to stop everything that happened all this while.
Guess mum head had been corrupted by viruses of freaking dad.
Wish all of this could just go away.
Maybe if dad wasn't here at all, mum will not be too sensitive about dad or even had an intention to divorce or kill herself.
Mum is too stress about her work and also us.
Wish i could help her.
If only i could.

Dad slammed the gate and off to work without talking or realising that i was there.
When tension has been corrupted in the mind, conflict will always came after anger.
Feel like running home but i don't wish to leave mum and brother in this situation.
How i really wish i could stop everything soon.

Money is not the answer, love is the real answer to everything.
Money can buy stuff but money can't buy one's love.
People say love is in the air but where is it ?
Is it hard to get one's love ?

Dishearted for this morning.

I love my friends for today.
Ahaha ! Not only today but everyday.

Thanks to :-

Sokkan.
Nurulain.
Nur Amirah. ( gila ! )
Ernie.
Effa.
Azilah.
Farhana.
Nazimah.
Hasanah.
Emmanuel. ( L )

Hope today will be as happy as yesterday.
Floorball in the afternoon.
Jogging at night.

Edited.

Errrrrgh ! fuck off la. You do it again.

What if you are already piss off and people don't listen or understand what you say ?

Don't you feel piss off. BITCH !

You confirm will be very very piss off right ?

Come on la, Natasha. You know that im a hot tempered person and you like take it seriously.

Like seriously shit you know. Come on la. Very piss off with you still.

((:

p/s: aku tak suke ape jadi pade pagi tadi.

"B O I"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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Plug in to your own IPOD / MP3 / MP4.
Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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