Saturday, March 7, 2009
Dear diary,
How i wish i could rewind the past.
As days goes by, emotion keep on running wild.
I told myself not to cry but i did cry.
I told myself to laugh but i fail.
I told myself that i could do it but i fail.
This emotional feeling i hate, come back.
All i can do is to pray to God and ask what in the world is happening to me.
I can't be myself.
I can't act as myself.
Today i feel so odd.
Feel like shouting, beating and crying.
This mix emotions make me want to kill myself. Fuck !
I so hate today.
Yesterday, you were there in my school field.
Yesterday, you called me sayang.
Yesterday, you kiss my cheeck.
Yesterday, you make me feel like 4 months ago.
Yesterday, i felt like asking you but i told myself not too.
Yesterday, was a hard time for me.
I can't forget you because i still love you. I can't let you go because i still love you.
)':
I just hope one day, you'll come back.
When i don't meet you, can you message me ?
When i am far away from you, can you give me a call ?
When i miss you, can you miss me too ?
Missing you is pain.
When will you be coming back ?
I'll be waiting and keep on waiting for you.
I'll be waiting for you and also your love.
Please do come back.
)':
I still remember the smell.
My laughing gas, Friend.
I need you back, love.
p/s: this heart cries a thousand times for you.
"emotionally hurt"
& wishing it was true.
