Monday, April 27, 2009
Dear diary,
Hometown !
Where's everything ?
Going back to hometown was fun but the car ride wasn't.
Mood changes on the way there.
Did enjoy life there, a bit i guess.
I met up with a new friend.
A goat friend ok.
Hometown is the sweetest thing ever.
Wish i could go there for a long time.
To get over with things.
Living in a kampung is different in modern towns.
Kampung are a social place to hang out with.
Are you still wearing that ring ?
I still do but i hang it on my necklace.
It's hard to let go of it.
Actually, i didn't accept the 'break up' part yesterday but today i realise.
You're leaving me for good.
I can't do much after this.
It turns out to be only 2 weeks and 2 days.
You gave up on me.
I never did gave up on you but now you're making me.
I'm nothing now but still i'm putting on a mask to play a role in school.
You let me go when i'm on my journey to melacca.
It's really a 'GOODBYE'.
I realise now, i'm not a lover but i'm just a friend that you can count on.
You once said "see who is the first person to ask for a break up", and now.
Who's that person ?
Who leave who ?
It's actually hard to say goodbye for now.
kenangan silam aku dan dirimu,
berdua sesama sewaktu,
alangkah indahnya sewaktu bercinta,
hakikat di dunia ini,
kau umpama PUTERA HATI,
suci bagai embun pagi,
tapi aku belum pasti,
apakah cinta kita di dunia ini.
There's no need for a relationship if you like or love that particular person.
You're just wasting time if you don't want to get hurt. Being in a relationship is hard.
Tell me, being friends are much better right ? We don't have to be with that someone.
Because, i've learnt my lesson yesterday.
p/s: 100409-260409
"kau umpama, PUTERA HATI"
& wishing it was true.
