Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Dear diary,
I'll wait and keep on sacrifising.
Yes, i can't run away from reality.
Yes, i can't love someone who's attach.
Yes, i can't lie to my own feelings.
Yes, i can't hold this tears much longer.
Yes, i can't stop my heart from breaking.
Yes, i can't stop myself from loving you.
But all of that, i must erase.
I'm willing to sacrifise my love for her.
I'm willing to be hurt in any ways.
I'm willing to back off if anything happen because i'm giving in to her.
I'm sacrifising everything for her.
Why ? Because i'm a person who gives in a lot.
I pray for both of your happiness.
I pray that you'll last long.
I pray that both of you will understand each other.
I pray that both of you won't fight anymore.
I pray to God, to let both of you live together in peace.
Eventhough i love you, i still have to do this.
It's for the both of you and i promise you already right.
I'll keep on waiting until everything is really being settled.
Let fate make its own way.
We'll watch and see.
Boy, i understand you love me but she loves you more.
Boy, i know your in a mess.
Boy, i know you feel like giving up.
Boy, i know you give in a lot.
Boy, i know you're going to cry.
Boy, i know your heart ache.
Boy, i know you feel like dying.
Boy, i know you're going to miss me.
Boy, i know everything thats in your heart right now.
Because what ever i type here, affects me too.
Sorry if i've hurt your heart because i don't want to hurt her's too.
Let's this mistake be a lesson for me.
A lesson which i will always remember.
A lesson which i won't make in future.
A lesson i will teach my children in future.
A lesson to wake my senses up.
A lesson to make me realise.
A lesson to make me feel how people feel.
The days with you was the greatest.
The times with you was fantastic.
The night calls with you is the sweetest.
I'll have to put it aside for a while.
Those pictures, will be the days that i'll remember your handsome face.
Those times, will be my memories.
Everything about you, will still stay in my mind but i'll treat it as a memories first.
There's still a lot of time to catch up with.
Just to let you know, i'll be right here, waiting.
I swear to you, i'll wait.
I swear to you, i'll keep on loving you.
I swear to you, i miss you already.
You've been the best of the bestest in my life.
It's a pleasure to meet you again and i thank God for that.
It's the sweetest memories for now.
I'm not saying goodbye because it hurts.
I'll just say, i'll be waiting for you.
As days goes on, this heart keeps on loving you.
As days goes by, this heart misses you.
As days goes on, this heart needs you.
As days goes by, this heart says ' it loves you ' .
Crying does not make any differents.
I swear it just hurt you more.
But still, i can't stop crying.
Someone please wake me up from this ugly nightmare.
)':
I'm losing myself.
" i'll keep on waiting for you even if it hurts. "
aku tahu, aku tidak sehebat dia.
aku hanya la seorang yang menanti mu di tepi jalan.
adakah engkau sudi menerima ku ?
kerana aku tetap akan menanti mu dan juga cinta mu.
p/s: this wasn't the plan for today, it hurts.
"aku akan korbankan cinta ku untuk kamu, perempuan"
& wishing it was true.
