typing.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Dear diary,

MASK.

Everybody seems to be happy with life, with their love ones.
Those couples, sometimes hurt my eyes.
In the bus, the void decks or even in school.
Holding hands, hugging.

Tell me, he used to hold my hand to cross the road but now nobody holds mine.
Tell me, he used to sit with me in the bus but now nobody is sitting next with me.
Tell me, my void deck used to have him but now he's not there.

Sometimes, feeling hurt is better than feeling happy.
Because happy is just for a while.
Just for a few seconds, minutes or hours.
When people are sleeping they don't feel happy.
When people bath they don't feel happy.
When people shit they don't feel happy.

Happy is just for the meanwhile, it just make us happy for a minute after that everything is back to normal.
I don't believe that happy is forever and i will never believe that.
I don't understand why everyday i feel like crying maybe because i felt that happiness is not around me.
I laugh but i can't truly feel it.

It's hard putting on a mask to tell people that you're ok whereas you're not.
The heart cries in pain, the face show it's fake appearance.
Should i continue this or should i just put off the mask away ?

Nobody can really make me happy.
Not even him or you.
Only myself.
Only god knows what my heart wants.
Only god knows what are my intentions.
Only god knows how i feel now in this situations.
Only god knows how strong i am now with this problems.
Only god knows what i'm saying deep inside this heart.
Only god knows who i love deep inside this heart.

Nobody can change this heart cause it had already make it's own decision.

p/s: those peck on the cheecks does not mean anything to me now.

"actions and words does not mean anything it's all inside the heart that matters."

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
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Single.
Pampered.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

~~tune in~~

Plug in to your own IPOD / MP3 / MP4.
Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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Thanks for dropping by for tagging or whatever shit ok ?
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Get a life and stop bothering about people's life maybe your own life is not perfect yet so make yourself perfect before spotting other's MISTAKES !
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