typing.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Dear diary,

Unfair.

It's 4.24am now and i'm still blogging.
I can't sleep for today and don't ask me why.
Will be updating a proper post about yesterday outing after flag day.
For now, i would like to express my feeling for a while.

It seem totally unfair to her.
She have to share her part for me.
Whereas the last time, she does not need to share you to anyone.
She only have the half of you and i have the other half of you.
It seem unfair.
So unfair ): .
I feel bad for this.

She's hurt and i know that.
We are in a three dimension love and i hate that.
You, should i back off for a while ?
Or, should i stay ?

You feel hurt and jealous whenever i told you a story about a handsome guy i met.
But what about myself, you and her all this while.
I'm more hurt than you are.
Why ?
Simply because she's your baby boo and i'm just your " sayang " .
It's different.

This heart is actually in pain.
But still, i ignore everything.
This heart cries a million times for you.

i feel pain whenever you're with her.
i cried whenever you message her.
i hate myself whenever she calls you.
i feel like dying whenever i call her name.
i feel irritated whenever i disturb you about her.
i feel disgusted with myself whenever you talk to her.
i feel jealous whenever you meet her.
i feel sad whenever you have to message me after meeting her.

I hate myself for loving you because i'm hurting someone's heart.

is there any chance ?
i'll keep on waiting for you.

p/s: waiting and still waiting.

"endure this pain till the end."

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
140793.
Single.
Pampered.
Daddy's little babyy.
Allergics: Dark Chocolates.
ITE Mac Pherson.

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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

~~tune in~~

Plug in to your own IPOD / MP3 / MP4.
Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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