Saturday, May 23, 2009
Dear diary,
Failed.
Yes, i admit i fail badly because i didn't study that much on other subjects.
Basically, now is my final months to buck up because i really don't care about Mid Year Exams.
You'll see me trying eventhough i'm hating it.
Because i want to get good results in the end and make mum proud.
It's going to be my hard time as problems going on here and there without stopping.
That's why i don't bother much about some problems, it's like " that's your problem people. "
My own problem is much bigger than yours. Sitting for n levels with family shaking and soon breaking down.
A single parent.
Tell me, if you guys out there create problems and i don't bother don't ever think i don't care because my problems is much crucial than yours.
Just let go and move on, don't make simple problem led to big one's because you won't like it i swear.
So, mid year was so badly done.
So what ??
I don't aim for mid year but i aim for prelims and real 'N' levels also 'O'.
I'm learning back my formula's now.
Trying to get the best score.
Challenging my own classmates.
See how far i can get yaaaa !
Yes, i admit i fail badly because i didn't study that much on other subjects.
Basically, now is my final months to buck up because i really don't care about Mid Year Exams.
You'll see me trying eventhough i'm hating it.
Because i want to get good results in the end and make mum proud.
It's going to be my hard time as problems going on here and there without stopping.
That's why i don't bother much about some problems, it's like " that's your problem people. "
My own problem is much bigger than yours. Sitting for n levels with family shaking and soon breaking down.
A single parent.
Tell me, if you guys out there create problems and i don't bother don't ever think i don't care because my problems is much crucial than yours.
Just let go and move on, don't make simple problem led to big one's because you won't like it i swear.
So, mid year was so badly done.
So what ??
I don't aim for mid year but i aim for prelims and real 'N' levels also 'O'.
I'm learning back my formula's now.
Trying to get the best score.
Challenging my own classmates.
See how far i can get yaaaa !
Without you, i feel like my life is breaking apart.
With your love still stuck in my heart, i can't go with other guys.
I'm not scared of losing you but i'm scared of losing your love.
Because your love had built me up into a strong and independant girl, boy.
I still love you like i always do.
I tried having other guys when you're not there last few months and it didn't work out because this heart tells me that it still love you.
Others was too different.
You're the one who knows me well and everything i do, you'll know my steps.
Eventhough you're busy with your soccer career and also you're still young, you had always been there for me the last time.
You sacrifise to much for me the last time.
When i'm sick and stuck in the hospital you were always there by my side.
You don't care that you're tired or whatever reasons you're having because you told me that you love and care.
Thank you, little boy.
You will always be my pendek.
My love.
I just miss hanging out with you.
can't get another boy so i'm just gonna wait for YOU.
p/s: you never change all this while, boy.
"your whisper, woken me up in the night."
& wishing it was true.
