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Sunday, May 10, 2009

Dear diary,

Is it fatal ?

All of the words you spoke to me. All of the sentences that you said. All of the quotes you wrote. All of those messages you sent. All of the calls i received. All of the spare times you spent.
Is now, no more.
I guess, it's gone forever.

First you said, you're really leaving me and saying the real ' goodbye '.
But now, you messaged me and said that, don't ever forget you.
If it was a real goodbye, you shouldn't have said to never forget you.
It does not makes any sense to me.
You told me to take care of myself and goodbye.
You told me you love me and goodbye.

What's with all of that ?
I don't seem to understand. You were too eager for a break up and end up, you were the one who wanted all of this back. In the first place, why do you need a break up if you're in this situation ?
All the promises are gone just like that.
All of the patience's you said, all of the not changing part and all of the part of not breaking up.
Where has the promises gone to ?

How hard can it be ?
If i don't seem to suit for you why are you still craving for me ?
You should pick someone much better than me right ?
What is your motive telling me that your ex is gone for real just because of you're waiting for me ?
Who do you really want in life ? Me or her ?
And now, you said not to forget you and you love me ?
If you love me too deeply in the first place, you shouldn't asked for a break up but what ?
You asked for it right ?

You said that your heart had break into million pieces but how about me ?
The person who had been busted with.
I must accept the break up for the last few weeks ?
You're the one who wanted the break up and yet you dare to say that your heart is broken into million pieces but hey, sorry to say this, my heart is twice as hurt than yours.

You said it's really a goodbye to me and end up all of it was just a piece of rubbish.
You're talking no sense now, boy.
How i wish i could make life easier for both of us.

I'm the one who's in pain now.
Can i rewind back my time to be a baby ?
To slow time for me to grow up.
To make a right decision.
To feel free.
To make everything fair.

BECAUSE FOR ME NOW, IT'S NOT FAIR.

LIFE HASN'T BEEN FAIR TO ME.

WITH ALL OF THIS PROBLEMS AND SITUATION.

I'm stress out.
I need a break time.
I need space.

All i said to you is always wrong. All i do to you is always wrong. All i cherish is always wrong.
So what's RIGHT ? Tell me ?

You're leaving me now and what should i do ?
I can't do anything. I'm out of words.
Just take care of yourself because now i'm nothing to YOU.
Thank you for everything.

time flies so fast, don't you guys thing so ?
how can people be so heartless ?

p/s: a girl with a broken heart.

"don't let go just stop holding on"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
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Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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