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Friday, May 15, 2009

Dear diary,

Starry starry star.

Here i am, not asleep. Typing here while listen to songs.
Tell me, i'm so typical.
Climb up again and stared at the stars again and again.
I can't resist the stars because whenever i looked at them, i'll start praying, hoping and wishing.
Praying that life could be better.
Hoping that life could end with a happy endings.
Wishing that i could turn back time when i was a baby.
Why i wish, pray and hope for all this ? There's a reasons behind everything that i've wished, prayed and hoped for.
If only you guys can read my mind and heart, that's so great.
Why ? Because whenever i smiled and laughed, this heart won't stop crying.

Trying to climb back up the brigde that i've built last few years because i've been falling all this while. Been drowning with my tears. Been blinded with these sadness.
But i know, trying to climb back up is hard by doing it alone because i need a little support and encouragement on the way.

Building back courage was not easy.
Building up trust was not easy at all.
Fixing back time was hard.
Fixing a broken heart is much harder.
However, i'm trying my very best to do that.
I'm not giving up because i want to climb back up on the brigde that i've built the last few years.
I want to have my normal life back and also myself back.

I really want that badly.

With God help, i hope i really get what i want.
In life we can't just depend on God, we need to help ourself too.
That's why i'm trying my very best now.
I don't want to fall again when i'm on the bridge.
I want to stay where i am and move on.

Seeing couple having dates and stuffs hurt me. Not that i hate couples, just that i can't bear to see them. It's really so sweet plus touching which makes my heart sink deeply because i miss having those times.
With people who are having relationships, last long aye ?
No fighting, no swearing.
Just lead a happy love life ok.

A person who sometimes depends on boyfriend was, me.
A person who is too sensitive when in a relationship was, me.
A person who loses her temper easily was, me.
A person who always believe in his words was, me.
A person who always remember the promises that were made before relationship was, me.
A person who sticks to her words was, me.
A person who trusted her boyfriend 100% was, me.
A person who knew her boyfriend well was, me.
A person who is mature in relationship was, me.
A person who give in easily to her boyfriend was, me.
A person who keeps quiet and gave up in figths was, me.
So from here, i'm moving on to be more independent.
To be the old me, who's not like this.
(:

Ok, its late at night already. Curfew time is over too and pillow is calling me.
So goodnight and adios people.
Hope everything turns out well soon in future.

p/s: bruises legs.

"i turn out to be changing my ownself without anyone beside me"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
Known as Dummy Fii or even Ketot.
140793.
Single.
Pampered.
Daddy's little babyy.
Allergics: Dark Chocolates.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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Plug in to your own IPOD / MP3 / MP4.
Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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