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Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Dear diary,

The BIGGEST lose.

Now i realise who i really love. People say, when they are gone from your life even for a minute or forever you will know that actually you love him or her more than the others.
And YES ! It's true.
I'm pouring, crying, rolling with tears.

I had not call him or message him for days and days.
I'm too busy with my own schedule and now his gone for 4 weeks.
Tell me, somemore i forget his big day which is TODAY.
I'm so bad so bad so bad.
I'm dissapointed with my ownself.

Woke up as per normal today.
Scroll here and there slowly.
Do the same routine and thought of going school but in the end i turn lappy on.
Listen to Terlanjur Cinta and suddenly i realise.
Something had been missing this few days.
Look at the date, SHIT !
I forgot that his gone for today in the morning.
Cried and cried and cried.
Because i wasn't paying attention to him.
I was too focus with my busy schedule until i neglected him alone.

His gone now.
All the promises that i would pack his bag for him before he leave.
Wake up early and call him.
Everything was gone, vanished, thrown and kicked.
I'm soo dissapointed with my ownself.
Wait for another 4 weeks is pain.
He won't have the chance to call or message me.

Now i realise the big moment of my life.
When i lose someone precious that i thought i love him as a friend turns out to be different.
I once told you that, i'll wait for you after your things.
And, i'll do that.
Do the very best for singapore.
I'll wait for you now and keep on waiting.

You and mario-mario are now gone.
No phone calls, no vibrations of messages.

I lose a biggest thing in life , today.
I'm too dissapointed with myself now.
I can't be bother for now.
This heart aches a million times.
i s u c k s.
and i can't turn back time for you.
if i had the chance to turn back time, i would definitely do that.
I'm sorry.

p/s: will another 4 weeks came faster ?

"buckets full of tears"

& wishing it was true.

the blogster.

Siti Nur Hafizah Bte Musa / SNHBM.
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my say.

Cherish others before it's too late.
Without love or support from others, you are nothing.
Stand by to the people who needs our help.
Give your fullest attention to the people you love before you lose them.

Nobody can change us, we are who we are.
Perfections is not everything, it always comes back to the heart.
In life there will always have some challenges.
It's us to decide to settle it in a fair or unfair way.
Life is precious, so live life to your fullest.

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Groove to your own beat not others.
Be yourself and stop listening to other people songs, mango fruit !

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