Second Post.

I was so pissed off today after social study paper.
Feel like killing each piece of question papers.
I'm not satisfied with it. Tasted like rotten Fruit Cake.
Undelicious !
But what's done is already done-d.
Can't be un-DONE.
But, SETUPID-ITO paper !
SYAITOOOOOOON BETOL !

Before doing social study paper, eyes was like freaking swollen.
Can't even blink for awhile.
Thanks to the last minute memories.
A big F for all that.

Let's forget about that setupid paper, let's express feelings.

ku renung keluar tingkap,
sentuhan lembut angin malam menyentuh pipi ku,
terasa air mata ku mengalir,
terbayang wajah mu di fikiran ku,
ku mula mengingati kejadian 8 bulan yang lalu,
kesedihan dan kehampaan yang ku rasa,
kesusahan untuk ku melaluinya,
kesusahan untuk ku meneruskan hidup,
ku mula berputus asa,
tanpa diri mu disisi ku,
ku rasa jiwa ku dipenuhi kesedihan yang amat pilu,
engkau meninggalkan ku untuk kekasih mu yang lain,
sedangkan ku masih mencintai mu sepenuh hati ku,
engkau tidak pernah menghiraukan perasaan ku,
engkau tinggalkan diri ku begitu sahaja,
dengan harapan yang engkau akan pulang,
malangnya,
hari kepulangan mu tidak tiba,
ku menunggu mu,
dan terus menunggu,
suatu hari itu,
ku terlihat mu di perhentiaan bas,
menunggu bas untuk menjumpa dengan si dia,
hati ku hancur dan kesedihan ku tidak boleh dikawal,
rasanya bagai di tusuk sembilu bisa,
engkau terus hilang dari padangan ku selepas hari itu,
tetapi ku tetap dan akan selalu menunggu kepulangan mu,
ku rela memaafkan mu,
kerana hati ku amat menyayangi mu,
ku berkata pada diri ku,
hari kepulangan mu akan tiba bila masanya,
kerana ku percaya,
jodoh tidak akan ke mana,
ku mula mengesat air mata ku lalu,
mendoakan agar engkau sentiasa sihat dan mengingati ku.

The feelings is undescriable.
It's been hurting me this last 8 months and i can't hold it much longer.
How this heart misses you. It really does.
I know you wouldn't come back. I know you won't.
I hope you're happy and i'll always pray for your happiness.
It does hurt seeing you with other girls but you're no longer mine.
I can't feel that way.
I should learn how to let go, how to forget.
Not keep on hanging on to him or depend on him too much.
It will just hurt myself and i won't move on.

iloveyoubutstillihavetoletgobecauseyou'resomeoneelseboyfriendnolongermine.

It hurts to let you go but i have too, baby.
You will always be in my heart and mind.
I'll try to let go slowly.
I'll try to forget about everything.
But still, i'll count our monthsary and anniversary baby.
Good bye for now love but not good bye YOU.

*heart breaks into million pieces*

Thanks Akhbar for the surprise before i went to the bus stop before taking bus 8 to school.
You cheered me up a bit.

But now, i'm crashing again.
It hurts, it HURTS,IT hurts baby leaving you.

)':

I can't imagine that i'm crying like a small kid now.
It's so ugly.
I swear, it's so not me today people.
I'm sorry.

p/s: bye lover.

"ittakestimeforallofthis"

-amirulashrafbinredhwan <3
i'll keep on saying bye until it's really a goodbye baby.