Friday, November 27, 2009
Dear diary,
When i cried, the sky cried with me too,
Hiding in my room, holding on to my towel.
Tears falling down, telling myself i can still endure.
To mend a broken heart with hatred is hard.
Saying a simple ' sorry ' seems so hard.
Everyone is after him, is he so great ?
I'm sorry that i lied to you, saying i was fine whereas it hurts.
I'm sorry i didn't have the guts to talk things out.
But i'm doing fine, trust me on this.
I'm trying my very best to let everything go.
For the better me, i'm enduring every pain i felt.
And this post is especially for Nurulain, i'm sorry that i lied a white lie to you.
But trust me , i'll be fine.
Soon or sooner.
Do i have to say this ?
I'm moving on to someone who is good at soccer.
A better person i knew.
A greater guy who has everything i want.
So Ain, see i'm fine and i'm moving on.
You don't have to worry.
All i know right now is i miss you a lot and i love you more than any guys love you.
Will you be there when i'm happy nor sad ?
And forever ?
Lastly, i'm sorry.
it's true.
i know i have dive too deep in the sea until i found myself drowning.
30th please come fast.
p/s: Nurulain Bte M. Ali.
"hidupinihanyasatukalisahaja"
& wishing it was true.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Dear diary,
I'm so badly down,
Geeesh~ Thanks bacteria, now i'm down.
About to get a fever and oh maybe down with a flu. ini sungguh baik.
Sheeesh ! Hope nobody disturb me for tomorrow or maybe later.
I need my rest and beauty sleep for 24 hours. So don't wake me up people.
Everything doesn't seems and feel right. I need a doctor or maybe this one is better.
i need a superman, man.
Pay is like fish, wait till end of this fucking month for just my fucking pay.
This isn't fair and of course i'm so fucked up.
All plans for november is cock up. Feel like killing them !
Whatever is it, i miss something really bad.
i miss playing soccer on soccer field.
Before i end my setupid post for today let me just wish myself and Mr Nawawi for our, 2 month of friendship.
BESTFRIEND DOKKK !
(:And last but not the least,
yes, youu.
30th please come fast.
p/s: mr dimple.
"bringingmyselfupdoen'tmeanifallinlovewithotherguys"
& wishing it was true.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Dear diary,
Done and can't be UNdone,
tell me, he is handsome.
Sezairi Sezali is one hot hot heat stuff i tell you.
His voice is superb ! Urber super duper POWER.
I want Sezairi to be the next Singapore idol.
He is cool enough, he has his own style.
I like the way he present himself on stage.
Sezairi Sezali, you can make it !
I love the way he make me moved.
People do keep secrets don't they ? They also keep hatred and sorrows right ?
Sometimes they rather kept quiet than voice it out right ?
People need their questions to be answered, sometimes.
I need an angel or a fairy to guide me through this dark night.
A moon and stars to shine my path at night.
I need a wishing well to wish something that my heart long for.
I need a shooting star to make everything real.
Careless, i make myself suffered with all this emotions.
I should stand up and not fall off.
Lesson is always learned.
Let go of someone you love, if it comes back to you that means it's yours.
If i doesn't that means it was NEVER yours.
And last but not the least, what goes around comes around.
It's late at night and i miss youu.
How ?
I wish upon the wishing stars, wishing that you're here beside me.
When i miss youu, i'll always called out your name.
p/s: let go and observe.
"seandainyaduniainiterakhirakuakankatakanyangakucintakepadakamu"
& wishing it was true.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Dear diary,
Bitter sweet of chocolates ?
Isn't this sweeeeeeeeet ?
I find this car sweet enough for me.
Cool-to-da-max-ico !
Ouuuh, how i wish i was already 18. pfffft !
I want this car, i don't care.
Die die, mati mati, must grab, mesti mahu nyaaa !
>:(
It's 3.05am and i'm still awake whereas i need to get ready by 6.30am later.
Morning jog with childhood friend.
Life has been back to basic like how it used to.
I really need a job, to support myself.
When a kid lost its sweets, they cry.
How about a girl lost her heart ?
Babies cry when they are far away from their mommy.
How about a girl who is left alone ?
How would you feel when you tried to give up but you don't want to ?
How would you feel if sacrifise is better than being hurt ?
How would you feel if you are bothering others ?
I feel, SHIT.
)':
Do you people think your life won't be complete if there's no soulmate ?
I think, lima puluh - fifty fity cents uhh.
:/
my life isn't complete if there's no, youu.
we became bestfriend, i miss youu.
come and go, eyy ?
Di antara kalian.
To those who are working for later on, all the best.
For those who is still sleeping at noon, congrats !
For those who feel so shitty, go bath then sleep uh.
For those who can't sleep, go cry.
For those who are crying, don't forget to wash your face with your tears.
For those who are still schooling, study ayeee ?
For those who sleep for only a few hours, i salute you.
Ok, i'm done and ohh star star upon the sky grant my wish so that i could fly.
Cinta dan hati, pulang laah.
D':
p/s: i need back my broken heart.
"it'sfragilesoi'mlearninghowtohandleitwithcare"
& wishing it was true.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Dear diary,
A box of cigarettes don't cure pain hearts,
Goodmorning people, oopssz i mean noon.
Today i feel so lethargic.
Tired so tired, i can feel my legs falling apart already.
Well currently i feel like going late to work again.
I don't know why.
Well i would like to say Thank You to my Patner since yesterday i didn't say that.
Patner, thanks for yesterday.
16 November, please come fast.
i miss a lot of people already.
Rivers don't move without it flows.
So i won't move without you telling me to.
Ain told me to move on without you but how to ?
You, her, what ?
Today is Friday the 13, so customers don't make me mad if not i'll turn to a beast.
Haha !
Da, mula die nye merepek.
cinta pergi dan hilang, tetapi dirimu tetap ku ingati.
mungkin masa ini adalah masa untuk ku berkata,
selamat tinggal cinta untuk selama-lamanya.
And i know, you won't be coming back.
Everyday when i think about this, it breaks me down.
How can i even look up at people and say i'm fine ?
I've been covering my face with a mask and it's breaking soon.
Tell me how much longer must i pretend ?
You are already gone and i'm still here thinking you would come back.
This is so wrong.
Where has your heart go boyy ?
D':
Malas nak pergi kerje.
p/s: isn't fair, is it ?
"babyboyyisnolongerbabyboyy"
& wishing it was true.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Dear diary,
Crushed ?
It's seems so long i last updated, i'm busy with work and today i feel so lazy to pick my ass up and bath for work.
What the hell. -.-'
Superman / Patner at work has been stolen yesterday. ):
Luckly i was OFF, if not i think i cried already.
Pity Ain for that shitty feeling, cheer up baby.
Weapon nari weapon.
Upon the stars, i swear i miss NanaOzu.
16 November, i promise you.
)':
No more babyboyy, now friendboyy.
What's the difference anyway ?
A lot.
how i wish today isn't a bad day.
p/s: blow me a kiss.
"mysupermanisstolenbymanypeople"
& wishing it was true.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Dear diary,
Silence is Better,
Sometimes when problems happen, we just need to kept quiet.
Why are you this way ?
Black guys are Hot.
White guys are Superb.
Chocolate and brownish guys are Fabulous.
But you are perfectly Excellent.
Sometimes when you think that the person you missed, misses you back but eventually the person who you don't miss, misses you more.
Why are you acting so strangely towards me ?
What mistakes have i done to you ?
Tell me now, what must i do ?
All i needed now is having babyboyy♥ by myside.
D':
p/s: why.
"supermancan'tflywithouthissuperpowers,batmancan'tfightwithouthisstrenght."
& wishing it was true.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Dear diary,
Further more, it's nothing much,
Facebook advice for today is, " Choose to love and be loved. "
But what if, i choose and it can't be loved ?
What's the point by choosing if it's not for loving ?
This happens when you give yourself too much space.
You intend to over limit yourself.
What's the point anyway, having and being in a relationship ?
Tell me couples, tell me lovers.
Why do we need to love if in the end, it just hurts.
I don't understand, what's the point ?
Do you people prefer to choose to be big or small ?
I prefer to be small, be bullied by or even been burned.
You can't be perfect nor you can't be imperfect.
What for act big if you, yourself are sensitive within any limits ?
Being small does not mean you always look down on yourself.
It's to not let you, yourself thinks that you are always what people wants.
You can't be a millionaire if you have no money.
You can't be a casanova if you have no looks.
Be small is to have a limit to yourself, so that you won't be arrogant to people.
Your looks does not determine others but your heart does.
So why be big if you have nothing ?
This is a long post, yes it is.
Sorry to make you guys bored.
What for if you have everything but you don't have love ?
It does not seem right, don't you think so ?
Where has everything gone to ? Why isn't there anyone who valued people ?
World oh World, why ?
People why oh why ?
Now a days, people change so fast.
People are forgetting about something so precious in life.
People valued money more than love.
People wants looks more than kindness.
What's happening people ? Where's your heart ?
The precious thing in life, is gone.
i'm just your close friend,
can't be more than that i suppose,
you want to run away,
but you told me that you're not running away from me,
but what if you do that,
i told you to tell me before you do that,
is to let me prepare,
prepare to lose someone i love the most.
i try to be perfect but i just can't,
i can't even reach for your love,
the worst is,
i can't reach for you,
who am i to you anyway.
i'll always be there for you,
i'll always love you,
finally i will always,
wait for you,
how long will it takes,
it doesn't matters now.
everything is because,
iloveyousomuch,
deep down inside it cries just for you,
hoping it was true.
Keep whining for nothing it just won't work.
It can't fix anything.
But you cry because you can't find any solution to the problem.
So it's better you shut yourself down and press the explotion button.
How will people be, if in the world people have no feelings ?
It just turn worse.
I'm sinking, seeing abang like that.
I'm drowning, seeing Ain like that.
I'm drowning even deeper, seeing myself this way.
open your heart, give it another chance.
Let me cry in pain all alone because i don't want bother anyone.
Trust me, i'll be fine after that.
Today will be well spend with abang.
Wipe away all your tears because i'm here.
It's 3.19am and babyboyy♥ is already asleep.
Everyone in this family is also soundly asleep.
Manje is snuggling with my blanket.
Why just i can't get in bed ?
imissyou, because i'm kental.
bring me closer to youu and pull me in, boyy.
p/s: betapa aku mencintai mu.
"iwalkoutfromthecafeandseeit'sraining,becausethisheartcriesariverforyou,itmissesyoutoomuch"
& wishing it was true.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Dear diary,
Meaningful lyrics,
We can go anywhere, go anywhere.
But first it's your chance.
Take my hand, come with me.
Its like i waited my whole life.
For this one night, it's going to be me you and the dance floor.
Cause we ONLY got one night.
And dance forever ever ever.
Feels like we are on another level.
Feels like our loves intertwine.
We can be two rebel.
Breaking the rules.
Me and you, you and i.
All you got to do is watch me.
Look what can i do with my feet, baby.
Feel the beat inside.
Just need you to trust me, boy boy boy.
Its a long way down, we so high off the ground.
Sending for an angel to bring me your heart.
Boy, where did you come from ?
Got me so undone.
No ifs and maybes, im realising my heart.
And its feeling amazing.
There's no one else that matters.
You love me and i won't let you fall boy.
I need you, boo.
I got to see you, boo.
And the hearts all over the world tonight.
Said the hearts all over the world tonight.
And i'm so glad to be yours.
You're a class all your own and.
Oh, little cutie, when you talk to me.
I swear the whole world stops, you're my sweetheart.
And i'm so glad that you are mine.
You are one of a kind and.
You mean to me what i mean to you and.
Together baby, there is nothing we won't do.
Cause if i got you, i don't need money.
I don't need cars, boy you're my all.
And, OH.
I'm into you, and boy no one else would do.
Cause with every kiss and every hug.
You make me fall in love and now i.
Know i can't be the only one.
I bet there hearts all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel, what i feel when i'm.
With you.
Boy, with you.
I don't want nobody else, without you.
There's no one left then.
And i, will never try to deny.
That you're my whole life, cause if you ever let me go.
I would die.
So i won't front, i don't need another man.
I just need your all and nothing.
Cause if i got that, then i'll be straight.
Baby, you're the best part of my day.
(:
happy ? YES !
Justin Bieber is HOT.
p/s: one time.
"causeofyouimove"
& wishing it was true.
