Monday, November 2, 2009
Dear diary,
Further more, it's nothing much,
Facebook advice for today is, " Choose to love and be loved. "
But what if, i choose and it can't be loved ?
What's the point by choosing if it's not for loving ?
This happens when you give yourself too much space.
You intend to over limit yourself.
What's the point anyway, having and being in a relationship ?
Tell me couples, tell me lovers.
Why do we need to love if in the end, it just hurts.
I don't understand, what's the point ?
Do you people prefer to choose to be big or small ?
I prefer to be small, be bullied by or even been burned.
You can't be perfect nor you can't be imperfect.
What for act big if you, yourself are sensitive within any limits ?
Being small does not mean you always look down on yourself.
It's to not let you, yourself thinks that you are always what people wants.
You can't be a millionaire if you have no money.
You can't be a casanova if you have no looks.
Be small is to have a limit to yourself, so that you won't be arrogant to people.
Your looks does not determine others but your heart does.
So why be big if you have nothing ?
This is a long post, yes it is.
Sorry to make you guys bored.
What for if you have everything but you don't have love ?
It does not seem right, don't you think so ?
Where has everything gone to ? Why isn't there anyone who valued people ?
World oh World, why ?
People why oh why ?
Now a days, people change so fast.
People are forgetting about something so precious in life.
People valued money more than love.
People wants looks more than kindness.
What's happening people ? Where's your heart ?
The precious thing in life, is gone.
i'm just your close friend,
can't be more than that i suppose,
you want to run away,
but you told me that you're not running away from me,
but what if you do that,
i told you to tell me before you do that,
is to let me prepare,
prepare to lose someone i love the most.
i try to be perfect but i just can't,
i can't even reach for your love,
the worst is,
i can't reach for you,
who am i to you anyway.
i'll always be there for you,
i'll always love you,
finally i will always,
wait for you,
how long will it takes,
it doesn't matters now.
everything is because,
iloveyousomuch,
deep down inside it cries just for you,
hoping it was true.
Keep whining for nothing it just won't work.
It can't fix anything.
But you cry because you can't find any solution to the problem.
So it's better you shut yourself down and press the explotion button.
How will people be, if in the world people have no feelings ?
It just turn worse.
I'm sinking, seeing abang like that.
I'm drowning, seeing Ain like that.
I'm drowning even deeper, seeing myself this way.
open your heart, give it another chance.
Let me cry in pain all alone because i don't want bother anyone.
Trust me, i'll be fine after that.
Today will be well spend with abang.
Wipe away all your tears because i'm here.
It's 3.19am and babyboyy♥ is already asleep.
Everyone in this family is also soundly asleep.
Manje is snuggling with my blanket.
Why just i can't get in bed ?
imissyou, because i'm kental.
bring me closer to youu and pull me in, boyy.
p/s: betapa aku mencintai mu.
"iwalkoutfromthecafeandseeit'sraining,becausethisheartcriesariverforyou,itmissesyoutoomuch"
& wishing it was true.
