Monday, December 21, 2009
Dear diary,
Because i felt you,
I may need a time break with life and myself.
I need to make things seems ok to me because now, life seem kind of bothering.
I need to get away from everything , i guess.
I want to run away from reality but i know i can't.
See all of this is so pathetic.
I need to regain my self confidence, back.
I feel like don't want to meet anyone or someone.
I just don't feel like.
But i want meet my Kak Pieja.
That's all i need, for now.
Sometimes things that you always wanted, you can't really have them.
So why pending hopes for something that can't be there with you.
Why hold on and never give up if you yourself knows that it will never come.
Simply because i'm stubborn.
D':
I NEED TO GET HOLD OF MYSELF.
I'M LOSING MYSELF.
WHY OH WHY SELF ?
D':
I'll be off to see whether life is really fair or not.
it has been days and days that i'm hoping to see you, again.
but sometimes i myself won't let me see you.
you are the only one i want, now.
i want to have you, to hold you.
to feel your love, not to be a stranger.
can i have that opportunity, mr kf ?
this really hurts me when i always feels that you are around.
there goes manje, missing and will never come back.
D':
life is so terrible.
p/s: cinta ?
"danakutetapakanterusmenunggukandirimu"
& wishing it was true.
